{A N G E R} sadnesss and [love]] ~TED !

[Rosie Lupin]

The short little Gryffindor girl sat nervously by one of her best friend's beds, watching the rise and fall of his chest as he dreamed away. She'd been sitting there while he slept, observing his black eye and bruised face, her hands wringing with anxiety as she tried desperately to control her temper.

Normally, Rosie Weasley wasn't an angry person. However, when someone she loved did something stupid and hurt themselves or they got hurt by someone else, her usually absent temper flared up and created a beast of a girl who could be, at times, rather scary. Naturally, for those not getting yelled at, the sight of the short girl inflicting her wrath on the person she was mad at was quite hilarious. For the thing about Rosie was that she only got angry with one person. And that was whomever had done the hurting.

This time, it was her ex-boyfriend, Ted Lupin. That particular boy had beat up Zane Lestrange that day in one of the corridors, after a rather large shouting match. Rosie'd heard about it a few minutes after the incident occurred, and had rushed up to the Gryffindor Boy's Dormitory, where some boys had brought Zane soon after he got beat up, as he'd been knocked unconscious by the temper-ridden Lupin.

Rosie could hardly contain her anger, although she'd hidden it while she shooed all the wide-eyed Gryffindors from the room and tended to Zane's wounds with flicks of her wand, muttered spells, and hot packs she'd sent children to steal from the Hospital Wing. She might have been mad at Ted, but she knew that he couldn't afford to get in trouble with the Headmaster at the moment, so she made everyone promise not to tell the teachers about the incident. After all, she still loved Teddy dearly, even as she tried her best to forget about him.

In that moment, her anger got the better of her and a livid Rosie Weasley stood and hurried down the steps of the Boy's Dormitory, looking for one particular boy whom she could yell at.

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[Teddy Lupin]

Everyone was talking about it. Ted Lupin beat up his best friend, Zane Lestrange. Hell, he had quite the temper on him lately. But everyone knew that. And it wasn't like Zane didn't deserve it. It was a nice afternoon, and since Ted had no one to go to Hogsmead with anymore, he was heading to the library to study, well before he was stopped by a little sister was crying her eyes out. It took Ted ten minutes to calm her down enough to tell he what was going on. She had told him he saw Rosie and Zane hugging in the tea shop. She had told him it wasn't their normal everyday hug, that Rosie was covered by Zane's neck and Zane was stroking her back and even kissed the top of her head. (ooc: Rosie is crying into Zane, Zane is soothing her). One, being the fact that this did indeed sound like a date pissed him off. Another being the fact that Zane was told if he ever hurt Lily Ted and James would be after him. And the third and most upseting point. Zane knew how much Ted loved Rosie, how could he do that to him?

He was on fire when Zane ran around the corner, noticing how angry Ted was. Ted began screaming at Zane and Zane pretending like there was nothing going on between him and Rosie, but Ted was aware of the bond they had always had, and he didn't trust it. When Zane began yelling, that's when Ted lost it. He took one swing into Zane's eye and then they kept coming, fast and quickly while the tears still streamed down his face. Lists of profanity's escaped his mouth as he continued to punch and eventually he was pulled off Zane by a few guys. He struggled but they manged to get him away from the scene, taking him outside. They throug him out of the castle and told him to go for a walk, which is what he did.

Eventually, he knew he had to come back. And when he entered the common room it went silent. He looked around the room before muttering loudly about what people were looking at and tried to escape to his room, before bumping into the last person and the first he wanted to see at the moment. Sadly, his ex-girlfriend who he was still in love with, Rosie Weasley.

[Rosie Lupin]

The moment she saw him, she stopped in her tracks, trying her best to keep herself under control. He still looked angry, although Rosie had no idea why. There was no reason for Ted to be mad at all. Zane was the one who should be livid. He was the one, after all, that had been beat up.

However, her anger boiled over in that next moment, when she remembered the night they'd broken up and the uncomfortable nature of the last few weeks as she'd cried herself to sleep practically every night and tried her best to avoid him. She hardly talked to most people anymore, as her heart, which was normally full and overflowing with goodness for everyone, was broken. She couldn't face the world in such a state as she was in.

The Gryffindor girl's fury couldn't be contained.

She stalked up to Ted, her arms crossed, bottle green eyes bright with anger. Being closer to him than she'd been in the last several weeks almost made her cry, but she pushed back the tears and simply began to scream her little heart out at him, for every wrong he'd done to her and her friends. For every single tear she'd cried into her pillow, whilst stifling the noise so her cousin and the rest of her dorm mates wouldn't hear. She wanted him to feel at least a part of the pain it felt to have your heart ripped into little shreds by someone you had believed that you could fully trust your most prized possession with.

"What the HELL were you thinking, Ted?" she began, her voice dripping with the motherly anger that was about all she coudl manage when it came to feeling mad with someone. She didn't want to even talk to this man, but the fact that he'd beaten up one of her best friends was sort of forcing her to. "Do you have any idea how badly you hurt him? Jesus, do you ever even think about how your actions effect other people, or do you just free-style 'til you screw something up?"

[Teddy Lupin]

Was it terrible that he went straight passed noticing Rosie's anger and noticed how beautiful she looked? God, he missed her, even when she was mad at him. He eyes were locked on her green eyes, even though they were bright with anger they warmed his heart, somehow. Her hair was pulled back, a few strands not making it to the back and he remember how he used to play with them when they had cuddled after their big fights and told one another how much they were sorry. Ted sighed interanally, wishing he could do that again.

As she asked him what the hell he was thinking, a few ideas went through his head. How he had betrayed Lily, going on a date with Rosie when they still went out, how they cuddled in the tea shop. How he betrayed Ted, giving him advice on how to get back together with Rosie, comforting him almost every night and telling him it would get better when he felt as though his heart was ripped out of his chest. As he looked at Rosie, he was hurting even now, knowing he couldn't hug her and tell her he was sorry, how that wouldn't be working.

"Hi to you too Rosie." he said dryly. "I realize how much I hurt the bloke, but he bloody well deserved it. Lily came to me, her eyes swollen and snot going everywhere, telling me Zane was on a date with YOU." Ted said, his voice laced with anger, but he wasn't going to lash out on her, he couldn't do that to her. "How the hell could he do that to Lily? He KNEW he was going to get hurt if he hurt her, and more importantly, how could he do that to me..." he said the last part quitely, he wasn't sure if she wouldn've heard him or not.

[Rosie Lupin]

The moment he looked down into her eyes, she gulped, having the notion of simply forgiving him right then and there and just rushing into his arms to hug him. But them she remembered the events of the past few weeks and she pushed that thought out of her mind, along with the remembrance of how familiar his height was to her. The memory of standing on his shoes at the Summer Ball. She let them all go.

When he mentioned that she'd gone on a date with Zane, she couldn't help but splutter with laughter at him. It wasn't cold laughter, but rather the kind that one lets out when they've become increasingly annoyed with someone and are laughing at their stupidity. "How thick can you get, Ted?" she asked him, her face contorted with the frown she wore. "Zane was the only one who realized I was lonely. I mean, without you, I felt really alone. So we had coffee together. You, of all people should realize that I would never go on a date with Zane. He's my bloody friend, you idiot."

She felt bad for everything that came out of her mouth. She didn't want to hurt him, but that seemed to be the only way for him to realize that Zane could have been killed if that stupid, thick-headed Teddy hadn't been stopped. But when he mentioned Lily, Rosie felt her anger reach breaking point. "That little backstabber deserves everything she gets," she told him, her voice cracking with hurt as she said it, "Even if the whole thing was simply a misunderstanding."

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[Teddy Lupin]

Ted mouth went into a straight line as she laughed at him. Laughed at him. Did she realize how much that just hurt? To hear her laughing at him and the fact that he hadn't heard that laugh in such a long while, forgot the whole fact that the laugh was in spite of him. It hurt just to think of that fact, like it did everytime he saw her walk away from him. And glare. And not talk to him. It hurt just going to bed now, knowing that that day was a unsuccessful one, that he didn't win Rosie's heart back.

He knew that the main reason behind the attack is that he couldn't handle the idea of Rosie moving on yet. She hadn't even given him a second chance yet, he had to proove to her that he was worth one yet. But that was kind of hard wen she would run away from him everytime he came in a certain distance of her. He would explain later to Zane why he did it, and hopefully he would understand, but he wasn't going to tell Rosie the reason, so he decided to just stay quite, and hope fr the best.

As she brought up Lily he groaned. He thought they were on speaking terms atleast, he didn't know they weren't talking. "Rosie please, if you're going to blame anyone for that night blame me. Lily doesn't deserve this." he said after her voice cracked, and the urge to pull her into his arms and soothe her was almost winning over. "Lily is just like my little sister, you know that." he said, saying as to why he protected her from today and why the kiss was just a whole drunken cherade. "I told Zane I'd beat the shit out of him if he ever hurt her, and he did. James would've done the same." he told her, knowing it was some truth. James probably wouldn't have another motive for the attack like Ted did.

[Rosie Lupin]

Rosie knew that it hurt him for her to laugh at his weak excuse for beating up Zane. But at the moment, she didn't even care anymore. Didn't he have any idea how much it hurt to talk to him? That even these moments of yelling at him would cost hours of crying later. She couldn't stand to hurt him. But for some reason, her mouth was running. Maybe it was the fact that she wanted him to feel some part of the hell she'd experienced over the last few weeks.

Because, after all, she didn't know that he regretted when he'd done. She wouldn't let him talk to her, all those times he'd tried. She couldn't stand having something like him dangled in front of her face, when she couldn't have him. The fact that she couldn't let him comfort her, no matter how hard she wanted to really got to her. Christ, she wanted him back, but she didn't trust him enough to not break her again. After all, the heart of someone as fragile as Rosie Weasley is a delicate thing, not to be tampered with, and definitely not to risk harm with.

The moment he told her not to blame Lily, her eyes hardened with hurt. She could hardly think about her cousin anymore. It just hurt too much. And lately, the focus of her days was to keep herself from feeling more hurt than necessary. Which tended to be a little hard at times, especially when she saw Lily or Ted in the hallways. How on Earth was she going to cope at Christmas?

"Doesn't deserve this? Ted, this has NOTHING to do with deserving. Besides, it was her fault as much as it was yours." Her voice cracked again. She was on the verge of tears, even talking about that night. Every time she thought about it she was. It was an open wound that didn't seem to be able to close, no matter how hard she tried to bandage it. "People usually don't snog their little sisters, Ted. Lily's one of my best friends. She knew how much it would hurt me, and she did it anyways." This talk brought tears to her eyes, but she pushed them back, scrunching her nose and sniffing in to keep them from pouring over onto her cheeks.

She scoffed when he told her his motives. "We both know this is about more than that. Zane's like your brother. HE's the one who didn't deserve anything. He was the one person who thought enough about my feelings to care. Unlike SOME people I know."

[Teddy Lupin]

Ted saw the hurt in her eyes and wished this wasn't happening, that they weren't fighting any more. Hell, he could handle being 'just friends', but fighting every time they talked to one another wasn't what he wanted. Never had he imagined that things could come to this. "No, but you see-- argh!!" Ted groaned and pulled at his mousy brown hair. How the hell was he suppose to explain to her that he was so drunk that he thought Lily was Rosie, and that's why he kissed her. Not that in his intoxicated state he found Lily extremely beautiful, no, he wanted Rosie and that was it. Somehow he was so drunk he got mixed up was all. He had already vowed that he would never drink for the rest of his Hogwarts days, and he was never get so drunk like he had in the past, where his words began to slur. He couldn't remember why that was so much fun, he couldn't remember half of it in the morning, well besides that night.

"No, now that I know what wen down, I don't think Zane deserved it, which is why I was going to see if he'd talk to me and maybe forgive me until we met up." Ted said, trying his best to stay calm, another one of his changes he was making. But what made him nearly loose himself was when she said he didn't care. His fist clenched while the other went to the bridge of his nose. He pinched it tightly, his eyes shut as tight as possible and he took in deep breathes, trying to keep himself sane. "Rosie, you can not say I don't care about your emotions, and don't interrupt me!" he said, looking at her with his eyes that were filled with hurt. "Forgetting that night, I've been there for you for nearly everything. From when you were little and James wouldn't include you in our game 'because you were a girl', I was the one who said no and sat beside you, letting James go off while you and I sat down and just talked. Not to mention when your first boyfriend, Gregory McCauley dumped you, telling you you weren't pretty enough for him. I sat with you and told you what a jerk he was and never deserved you in the first place."

"And I have always been the one to know what you need from me or anyone before you can even say it. So Rosie, you can not say I don't care about your feelings. If it's anything, they're probably one of the most important things to me." he told her, knowing he was probably seconds away from being told off again.

[Rosie Lupin]

She couldn't handle it the moment he started talking about how he cared about her feelings more than anything else. They'd been best friends, for Christ's sake, how could he have not cared about her feelings? But she knew on that night, he hadn't really been thinking about her. Maybe she was simply being selfish, thinking that Ted should always have her on his mind. Hell, she always had him on hers.

Tears welled over her eyes when he finished speaking. And she did perhaps the least Rosie-like thing that one would ever think her to do. She reached up her tiny hand and slapped him across the face. "Don't remind me how much I trusted you," she muttered, her voice thick with tears, cracking on every other word. He was much too stunned to do anything, so she simply pushed past him and out of the Common Room, hurrying down the corridors to find a safe place to cry. But, in the end, the tears overwhelmed her and she simply collapsed against the stone wall of the corridor, crying into herself, curled in a tiny ball like a cat.

[Teddy Lupin]

Ted was shocked. Rosie Weasley had never slapped a person in her life. Well maybe, but he was never around to see. And she slapped her, hard across the cheek. His head snapped to the side, his mouth open from the shock. His hand slowly went up to his cheek as she stormed away, knowing there would be a red mark on there soon. He watched as she rushed out of the common room and he sighed, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hand. He was going to regret what he was going to do next, but there was no way he was going to stop himself. A few people did try to stop him as he went to exit the portal hole, but he just ignored them.

He followed the sound of sobs in the corridors and found her shortly after in a ball in the ground, sobbing uncontrolably. He slowly walked over and sat beside her. "Rosie, I know I'm probably the last person you want here with you right now, but just so you know.. I'm here." he told her softly, but the sobs kept coming. After a few minutes, he couldn't handle it anymore and pulled her into his lap, moving her head to sob in his neck and held onto her tightly, ready for when she would try to thrash away from him. He was surprised he gotten her into her lap, he was sure as soon as he laid a hand on her she'd push him away from her and tell him to go back.

[Rosie Lupin]

The moment she heard him beside her, she wished with all her might that she could simply hug him, tell him it was fine, she still loved him. But she couldn't. Every time she thought about it, the image of him snogging Lily came back into her mind and she cried even harder.

But when he pulled her into his lap, she could hardly keep herself from pushing him away. It came down to the fact that she was simply too tired to get him off of her. Exhaustion had pervaded every inch of her being in the last few weeks. Keeping her emotions pent up made her tired. Crying them out at night left her even more so. Not talking to hardly a soul except Victoire and Zane all day long, and even then, only in monosyllabic answers was verging on breaking her. She couldn't live without Ted, and that was something she'd realized the past few weeks. Perhaps just being friends with him wouldn't be so bad.

At least she would get him back.

She continued to cry into his shoulder, feeling slightly embarrassed when, about ten minutes later, she sat up and found a huge wet spot on his shoulder. It looked as though a bucket had been poured out on him. Rosie sighed and slid off his lap, sitting against the wall next to him. That cry had worn her out. She leaned her head against the wall and sighed, pushing the stray pieces of hair out of her eyes and wiping the last tears from her face. "Sorry I hit you," she apologized sheepishly.

[Teddy Lupin]

Ted smiled softly, after a few seconds of her not pushing him away from her. He just let her cry into his, his hand ghosting over her back, every so often touching it, which soon seemed to ease her enough that the tears began to die down. He wanted this back, even as friends they did this, why couldn't they go back to they way it was before? He couldn't handle not talking to Rosie, his best friend since what felt like the beginning of their time, it was hard not to atleast talk to her every day. Maybe they could get back to somewhat normal?

But he knew it would be hard. He'd be craving her, hugging her like they were more then friends, kissing her forehead, cheeks, neck and lips like he used to and more importantly, telling her how much he loved her. He never really told her how much, only when he was on a high from the full moon or ever so often. He was sure she was aware of it of the time, but maybe not. He have to tell her that, if they ever got passed this and got back together. As she slid off his lap and to the floor next to him, he looked over at his drenched shirt and gently lifted it, making sure it wouldn't stick his skin or something. As she apologized from hitting him he shook his head. "Naw, I deserved it. I've done so much shit this pass little while.." he said, sighing as he ran a hand through his hair.

[Rosie Lupin]

She raised her hands to her head, placing her temple in them, and her elbows on her knees, which she'd pulled up to cocoon herself in a small little package. She wanted this back. All the time they shared with each other. Every moment they spent together as friends. But Rosie knew that was all they could be. Unless a miracle happened, she couldn't trust him like she had a mere few weeks ago. She just couldn't.

"You didn't deserve it," she told him, turning her head slightly to give him a small smile. She sniffed in, her nose scrunching a bit, "Just me being stupid as usual."

She tore her eyes away from him, focusing them instead on the far wall of the corridor. It was strange how hard it was to keep yourself from looking at something. She had to focus all her concentration on not letting her eyes stray to look at him again. She'd missed staring at him, after all. Every time she saw him in the halls, she simply passed by and tried her best not to burst out crying. The Gryffindor girl couldn't stand how awkward this encounter was. Especially considering they used to be able to talk so easily. Perhaps that was simply the consequence of having your heart broken.

[Teddy Lupin]

Ted sent his own smile her way as she smiled at him. He missed just sitting with her, talking about nonsense or playing wizard chess. They had, well, he had ruined years upon years of friendship, something the both of them had agreed on not happening if they ever broke up. Of course, at the time, he never mentioned the word break up, thinking it was impossible, apparently not as impossible as it looked.

"I did." he stated simply, running a hand in his hair as he looked over. He wasn't unaware of the fact that she refused to look at him. He could understand though, for the first few days it was hard for him to look at her as well. He gave up after a few days, but she was still missing her smile, the scrunched up faces and the shine that usually resided in her bright green eyes. He wanted that all to return even if they were.. just friends.

"And you know, if I were in your position, I would've slapped me too. I've be a total jackass lately, mostly because we never talk anymore.." he said the last part in pain, looking away for a few moments before he pulled his eyes back on hers. "Rosie, I know you'll probably never forgive me in a million years, but I hate us not talking. We made that promise remember, to be friends if anything happened. I know you might not even trust me for that, but can you please consider it?" Ted pleaded, now looking at her again.

[Rosie Lupin]

Rosie finally tore her bottle green eyes away from the stone wall across the corridor from her small framed body. She couldn't stand not looking at him. It was one of the only ways that she could tell what he was really thinking. After a whole lifetime of friendship, Rosie'd become rather good at reading his emotions. It was easiest when looking at that handsome face of his. Although she was bettering herself in reading it in his voice.

Rosie let out a bark of harsh laughter. Her true laugh had been lost in the past few weeks. She didn't find anything terribly funny anymore. At least, not without Teddy. So, naturally, she'd gotten out of practice with it came to expressing her merriment. "Honestly, you didn't. And you're not a jackass." She paused and thought for a moment before laughing a little again, still thinking it sounded weird in her ears. "Okay, maybe just a little."

She paused after that. The fact that he'd just voiced exactly what she'd been thinking since they broke up was just weird. Fixing her eyes on him, she knew she had to look at him when she said this. "I don't even have to consider. You're still my best friend, Ted. No matter what. Sorry, I just needed some time to think stuff over." She told him. But there was something else that she added afterwards that was perhaps the most truthful thing she'd said all day. "I was scared, too."